So I dont think im giving it my all. One thing that i havent been doing is titheing. I havent been sacrificing and giving what i can, but rather i have been conservative and selfish. With all the market fluxuations creating work instability, ive been uptight.

the other thing that im try to do is be more proactive. how can i be trusted with more responsibility if i dont grow personally and develop what i already have? so im going to step up to the plate and take care of business.

with desicions that are at hand, im getting excited thinking about possibilities. lifes finally moving and im pupmed but i lack the personel motivation(which is what i talked about above, and im trying to improve on). if anyone actually reads this, pray. gods moving and i dont know where.